love you guys, thank you for being here and supporting ❤️
i love you, thank you so much 💜
Yay! 🥰💪🤗🙏🏻you can do it see 😇I’m here for you reach out to me anytime you’re never alone having me as a friend😌💕
Love You, too your not alone I suffer from both as well!
You are btw so brave for sharing this i know sometimes not everything is easy to share.. and it just hits me that i relate to a lot especially when u talked about how u started "feeling" again bc i was numb for a while and words can't describe how magical it was to be able to cry when looking up to a beautiful sky or anything really.. it might be the first video abt topics like this that really touched my soul bc of the similarities and how u put thoughts and feelings that i couldn't express into words.. im so glad that you're feeling better and that you decided to look out for yourself and i wish for u and all of ur viewers a healthy mindset and healthy life in general.. sending lots of love! thank u Daniel for sharing this💕
I do not know you personally but i just wanted to say that i am so happy that you are doing better. You deserve that and you seem like such a sweet human!
I love you Daniel you are amazing 🥲
THANK YOU for stressing that people should never stop their medications without professional help! As you know it can be dangerous, thank you for giving safe advice on a platform full of unsafe advice. You will likely never read this, but I want to give you props anyway! I am a social worker and along with providing mental health services, I am 44 and have dealt with mental illness most of my life. Even the people you think have it together suffer, thank you for showing others that even YOU suffer too. It will help, you will help people by talking about this. ❤️ This is sadly a battle that is life long, with up's and down's. There may be times where it comes back and you feel like you have to go through it all over again. That's why they call it a battle and that's why we are survivors. Now that you are on the right meds you will find as we age our brain chemistry changes and we usually have to tinker with the med's we take, but that's just part of getting older. You got this! ❤️❤️
So happy for you, it's okay to learn with life! I'm glad that you are in a happy place now! keep on going ! :D Love from Portugal
I'm so glad you feel like you can feel things again. Your being here is a huge blessing. Thank you for taking care of yourself so that you can see the world with fresh eyes and emotions. All light and love to you on your journey.
I may be a recent fan, but I know how hard this was for Daniel to talk about. To be this raw and honest. I also use humor to deflect, and I also fell into a deep depression just last year that I thought I may not come from. I saw a therapist and also realigned with myself. Now, I’m starting a new career, lost 85 pounds so far, and I’m so happy now. I love to see that for him too. These conversations are important and to come from someone as sweet and real as Daniel is extremely helpful. I love you! Thank you for your honesty. 💖
I had to break up with my partner of almost 4 years to understand to put myself first. It can be terrible, but it might take a metaphorical shock to get you to realize you're worth love. Proud of you.
love you Daniel!!! 💕
Wow, powerful video. Hard to imagine someone so handsome and so talented having hurdles in life. Know that you are loved. Want to bear hug you so hard you can not breathe. How can the mind deceive us, looking out the window on a bright sunny day and see nothing by storm clouds?
I'm late to this but I want you to have so much happiness and joy 💛 I relate to so much you said, it's nice to know someone feels the same.
Plus I accept you for who you ARE
Honey God bless you I accept people who’re GAY!! xo much love n I’m no we’re so proud of you on how far you’ve become n grown love your non judge mental christian friend
You're so hot. And your honesty and openness are so refreshing!!
Is just eating and pooping go dig a whaole
where is daniel born? didnt know he not american. i thought he american born in boston
Trust me, I’m going through the same things and your video really made me happy about myself. Like I’m not alone. It’s good that I have family. I’m sorry you didn’t get the family that helped you by telling your feelings. This video made me cry because it’s so real but yet so good. I’m happy your here. This video is so true and not much people make these so I really enjoyed it very much. Please keep making videos about this. ❤️❤️❤️
New subscriber here! Just want to tell you that you’re such a beautiful soul ❤️ Thank you for opening up ❤️ I battle mostly with severe social and general anxiety. I hate it! But yeah, I am so happy you are feeling better these days 🤗
I thought you are Joey were perfect together and that you would be the couple to last! I hope with the medication change and your new outlook on things you and Joey can work things out! You guys were meant to be together! I know there is still so much love their from both sides! 💕
Big hug and 💋 to you, for being so brave to allow us to hear you. Hx
Every day when I'm alone with myself it becomes an emotional struggle for me to be productive against depression and anxiety. I'm constantly trying to reconcile putting off the seemingly unproductive, seemingly more pleasurable, and seemingly less meaningful things I deeply feel like doing, with the things that I don't feel like doing but appear as though they will give me a greater sense of meaning in the scope of my entire life. The deep desire to lounge around and mostly only develop myself through this way is met with a socially constructed sense of disgust in my seeming inability to endlessly maximize my personal development, and I'm left wondering if maybe I should just give into lounging about in my free time, that there is something intelligent in what might appear to the stereotypically successful as incredible laziness. I'm emotionally burnt out from working, working out, studying Japanese, and working on two novels, and without giving up working out, I think I might try lounging in my free time for awhile.
I’m very similar and have been struggling with depression since I was a little girl. I come from Europe too. I’m not close to my parents and never have been. I also love to beautify spaces and have done that for my friend the last year. Although I studied science. I keep hoping I’ll be healed of mental illness but it comes back. It is hard to keep hoping when you’re struggling so much. Like you, I show a strong, perfectionist side to others. I never had anyone to go to for support growing up so I have always had to raise myself. That has meant we have had to be self-reliant which at the time, helped us get through those years but as we age, we realise, these behaviours become maladaptive and we have to learn to let people in. I can understand about the walls because I have them too. I get a lot of mixed messages from people re my mental illness and the medication stuff as well. I don’t like to take them and I don’t but I struggle so much I think about going back on them as I feel I have no choice. I also take care of so many people and I have never put myself first. Ever.
I’ve asked those questions too. Why I work so hard and others don’t, the same opportunities didn’t come. I’m learning that when we close ourselves off, we can also close off opportunities. Those doors are opening for me now after over 14 years. Timing is perfect.
And I’ve been pushing people away too. How did you overcome those fears Daniel? I really appreciate you talking about this. I’ve had so many people misjudge me when I’ve taken care of so many people behind the scenes.
I’m in religious circles too and they don’t mean to but the messages they give me make me feel bad for wanting to do what you are...you’re breaking free!
When I learned that I absolutely did have anxiety when being diagnosed with it so many things made more sense. It made it less of an identity for me and realizing it was a disorder I had developed.
Good for you for taking the time to work on yourself. It's SOOO important. I have been doing that for the last couple of years and I have grown so much and learned so much about myself. Also, psychology and mental health medication has come so far in just the last few years.
There is no love(
I adore you Daniel 💜 thank you for sharing your story ..you are definitely an inspiration and I am praying you find peace and happiness in all the days ahead! Xoxo
I’m going through a break up...I have depression and anxiety and I dissociate for so long since 15-16, I’m now 22 going on 23... it also took the break up to make me realise that I need help and your video made me feel like I can do this and live a life with being my true self and not worrying about others and leaving myself last I’m soon going to go to therapy and recover I’m happy I got to reconnect with friends and family again cause all I was doing for 4 years was devoting my time and energy to one person who didn’t see it or need it anymore So glad I came across your video Thank you so much for sharing You’ve made me not feel like the odd one and my family now understands about mental health and are supporting me through this journey of mine Thank you Daniel Thank you so much ❤️❤️
SOME I have depression too😢😭
I love you
Yeah those antidepressant drugs will fry your brain and make you a zombie.
Thank you Daniel.
Daniel I'm so proud of you for putting out this video
this will be an essay, because i need to vent and let it all out! trigger warnings: mentions of having suicidal thoughts, mentions of depression, age regression, losing a parent, brief mention of wishing for incest (but nothing happened, couldn't possibly happen). note: thank you to everyone sharing their stories here, i appreciate you all! you're all so strong, i believe you will all find your way! reminder that being unhappy and feeling all the emotions is okay! you don't have to be happy all the time! life is all about balance and being unhappy is part of life! thank you so much Daniel for making this video! i love you! 💜 my story: i'm 20 years old and in my second year of college (bachelor degree). since the pandemic started (in my second semester of first year of college) and online school started, since i didn't have my wonderful friends constantly around me anymore and since i didn't have structure in my days anymore, i've been really sad, stressed, numb, empty, incapable of handling school work and internship. i lost all motivation and energy to do anything. barely made it through exams and had to quit internship because i didn't have the mental capacity to handle life and responsability. i've struggled with depression(? idk for sure) as a teenager (when i was 16-18 years old) and had suicidal thoughts. highschool sucked for me and i didn't have a good support system (i have my mom but i never felt like i could open up to her at that time). i went to therapy after it got really bad (darkest point of my life up until then) and met new amazing friends when i went to college. therapy and my friends healed me and i stopped therapy because my therapist and me agreed i didn't need it at all anymore. then i had a great first and a half second semester of college with good teachers, mentors and friends. i never felt so good and alive in my life. i was so confident and full of joy. i felt surrounded by support. then the pandemic started and i didn't have my friends, teachers and mentors around me anymore. i also didn't have structure anymore in my days and didn't feel pressure to attend online classes or to sleep early. i was tired most the time and didn't have motivation to study. my grades in second semester (of first year of college) lowered a whole lot in comparison to my first semester. then there were summer holidays and i felt fine, because i work in a fun amusement park and met a new good colleague/friend and because there was no obligations or pressure from school. ...that was until my second year of (online) college started... the pressure and work we got from school raised so much in comparison to my first year of college. and the pressure was on since the first week of the (this) school year. i got really stressed because i was behind on work since the first week of school and i wanted to quit school. i couldn't handle the pressure. however, i didn't quit and said i was gonna do my best. exams rolled around and they went quite horrible. i didn't have any energy or motivation in me to study. i felt unmotivated because i wasn't doing well mentally and also because i wasn't sure if this study field i'm studying was the right one for me. i somehow made it through exams, by pulling an all nighter before every exam and trying my best to memorize as much as i could (yes i literally started "studying" the night before the exam every time and even then i didn't want to do it). i felt like pure shit, mentally and physically (since i didn't sleep, eat properly or showered enough). i got through those exams, living like a zombie who felt so sad and stressed that i didn't even feel anything anymore, i felt numb and empty. living like that, i got through some more classes and exams. then internship was approaching and i knew beforehand that i wasn't capable of doing it since i didn't have the mental capacity or energy to do anything. i started it anyway because life doesn't wait for you and you just have to keep going. at least that's what it feels like to me. i did it because i wanted to know if this study field was meant for me, by actually trying it out in practice, by trying out my future job; by doing this internship. my mid-term evaluation during internship was so bad. i wasn't doing enough to pass the internship and my mentors told me i needed to work harder if i wanted to pass. i knew i couldn't do that because i was already giving my all at that point but 'my all' was 30-40% of my full potential, because i didn't have energy to give more, to work harder, because i wasn't doing well mentally. i finally opened up to one of my mentors that i'm not doing well mentally, that the work pressure of this internship is too much for me to handle right now. that it's hard for me to do anything at all. she said i needed to put my mental health first and that i could quit my internship and do it again next school year. so here i am. i quit my internship and i'm going to a psychologist again. i have some time for myself now before school starts again (in a week already 😔 i'm not ready at all honestly, idk how i'm going to handle it). i have had around two weeks now to do some self reflection. i realised that besides not seeing my friends, besides the huge pressure (+stress which leads to lack of motivation and really bad procrastination) to do school work and besides not having structure in my days because of online school, there's another factor that affects my mental health. i lost my dad when i was two years old and never talked about my feelings, never progressed this, because i felt like i couldn't talk about it to my family. and i never felt sad about it because my grandfather kind of took that father role in my life a bit. but now my grandfather is in a residential care center and he can't take that role in my life anymore because i don't see him often (while i used to be with him all the time) and because he's sick, his physical health is weak and he's also more sad and stressed then the strong and positive granddad i used to know. so now i don't have anyone in my life taking that father role up (i don't have a stepdad either). and for the first time in my life i've been mourning the loss of my dad. i crave to have my dad so badly. i miss my dad (or someone who takes the father role in my life) so much. it's to the point that i search for older men to have a relationship with and to the point i have fantasies about being in a relationship with my (young) dad (that i see in the pictures we have of him). i just crave a dad (figure) abnormally much... and i realised another thing about myself. i sometimes feel much younger (around 5 years old) than my age (20 years old). i sometimes just wanna be very playful and very consoled and i can't handle any responsibility. i think this, me feeling like a kid sometimes, was caused by childhood trauma i didn't know i had. trauma, at a young age (where i'm still stuck) about losing my dad and never talking, processing or grieving about it. so i've been dealing with the grieve and the 'daddy issues' too. i wish i knew someone that also has these issues so that i could talk about it, because right now i can't (except luckily with my psychologist -i'm scared to talk about it tho-). i feel like a sad, fucked up, empty, little (literally little) mess. thank you for coming to my ted talk. i wish you the best, yes you. 💜
It sounds like people did reach out to you to help in the past, multiple times. So watch out that you don't burn those future bridges. Also perfection is overrated and doesn't exist. Do what makes you happy and you will find like minded people. You're still young, stop trying to grow up so fast. You are how ever young you are and talk about forever houses. So many people your age and older still live with their parents in the birth home. Don't forget to count your accomplishments no matter how small they are, and take stock of what you can learn about each experience.
Hiya stranger! Glad you are feeling better, anxiety and depression is a very lonely place to be ❤️ turn your magic on and get working kid ☺️
I want to be your friend in real life
Hello from Ireland, I just want to say that you are amazingly strong and never apologise for feeling emotional. I have been through a very similar scenario and I just wanted to say that, you are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for. As the saying goes "What hurts you, only makes you stronger', The most important thi g is to talk to someone, (so much so, that they have to tell you to take a breath lol) No but seriously always remember YOU COME FIRST, YOU ARE NUMBER ONE.
You are amazing please be yourself! I wasn't a fan because I always thought that you were putting on airs but this is so much better! Thank you for sharing. The imperfections are what make people interesting and relatable.
I waited until 36 to reach this point. I'm proud of you for doing it sooner and being vulnerable. 💜
I'm so sorry boo! Thanks for sharing your story. You deserve wonderful people to surround yourself with!
Daniel everything you said is me God bless you🐱🌹🌷💃🐦🌞💋
Well I’m going through a tough time too but I’m getting there and I also have anxiety and depression to and I have my mom and my kids to fight they don’t understand what that means so the only people that I have is my counselor and my psychiatrist and they do help but I’m the only one who can survive in this but it was nice to hear your video
You are so handsome! Thanks for being so honest. I have suffered from depression since I was 12. The fight is real.
Hi Daniel, thank you for making this video, I feel such a sense of familiarity and understanding. I currently live with my family who are also very strictly religious people, and as a gay boy I feel so restricted and trapped, because the last thing I want is to be a disappointment to them. But I need the confidence to stand up for myself and make myself heard. Thank you for everything you do, you never cease to inspire me!! 💛✨💛
I’m happy for you Daniel. Thank you for sharing your journey. I’m so glad you feel better 😘
Hugs! I feel you, I’ve been debating anti-depressants for a while, but unfortunately for me I think the healing starts with avoiding toxic people. My son has gotten abusive and it hurts my heart that someone so close to me can be so toxic.
Im so happy you feel happy again
You are such a nice young man. You seem very emotionally intelligent. Hang in there and do what’s best for you always.
Oh my gosh, you are waaay too good looking and sweet to have depression and anxiety - sorry if that sounds shallow - but I calls it how I sees it... LoL. Anyways, you've got soooo much to be HAPPY about - starting with those eyes and that face! :)
Sending lots of love and hugs to you. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for about 10-12 yrs. Things will get better.
I never really comment but I’m so proud of you. Im so happy for how far you’ve come. I’m glad you’re feeling like yourself and I hope you never feel so alone and confused again. Thank you for sharing this video- it really resonates with me and I feel so connected to you bye
Thank you for sharing! It took me a long time to realize I was dealing with mental health issues, depression, and anxiety. It took me literally having the things I loved "stripped" away from me to finally put myself first and really focus on how I'm feeling, vs how I'm surviving. And like you said, that moment where you can look at the clouds, feel the sun, or just listen to music and enjoy it...it feels like the first time! Like we've got a new lens to look through, that you forgot existed.
Good job 👏 be free 😇💕I’ve been praying for you🙏🏻😉🥰🤗yay!
God wants to deliver you from depression brother. He is our only Hope and Glory in this world. I used to face the same battle as you but not I am completely delivered.
Please take care of yourself please
Daniel it ok to be yourself
New subscriber here💛
Praying for you! Jesus loves you! Glad your taking care of yourself. Thanks for opening up to us. God has blessed you with amazing talent, you will get there and continue to thrive, God has amazing things in store for you. Jeremiah 29:11💛🙏💛 Love & Blessings!
I love you Daniel. Thank you for being you and I am so happy you're still here with us ❤️
Well i bid ended uo having my 3rd open heart surgery like 4 months ago that went totally wrong put me in a coma for 2 n a half weeks. And come out of the coma my leg didnt get enough oxygen to my leg so i had to get a left above the knee amputation. Im bery depressed and and axiety also bc i cant afford my lrosthetic leg i wish i could win the 10k$ to get my leg im only 32 vut noone helps anyone anymorw
awe thanks for sharing
I have my ups and downs. I’ve been thinking of going on medication. I’m afraid of taking it.
I just want to give him a hug
Daniel I love you so so much. I wish I could turn back time and change all those bad moments in your life. I honestly hope to meet you in real life one day and just hug you for eternity, that hug that makes you feel like you’re home and safe. You’ve been a Ray of sunlight and knowledge for me and I’m forever grateful for Joey because he brought us you. Love ya love you love ya
Stay strong Daniel you are such an amazing person and are so loved 🥺❤❤
Stay strong Daniel You'll get pass the blocks blocking you :) Luv you
Beautiful Beautiful Boy
Thank you for being so brave and opening up, I can 100% relate, medications never helped me and only made things worse for me so I ended up getting a Psychiatric service dog who literally saved my life and still does to this day almost 10 years now, it's not a cure all but she definitely is my reason I'm still here. I recently lost a friendship that I thought would last forever and then suddenly they just dropped me so I have been battling some major depression since around Easter time so my emotions are super raw lately. I'm proud of you and the strength you have to keep moving forward 💖💖💖💖💖
I can identify your story. It’s hard to overcome. We are products of our environment. It’s about learning to live with ourselves
YAS make a return vid with Kalel Kitten!
Thank you. I’ve struggled with depression/anxiety for a while now but haven’t tried meds. I just started on one 2 days ago and I’m hoping it helps.
We are all here for each other♥️♥️♥️
So glad you're here 🤗
Mental health is very important. I also struggle with depression since 10 years or more... I also struggled with suicidal thoughts... It's very tough... But we have to be strong and make this life the best place for us.
I've been stuck and dealing with that kind of darkness for the last 11 years, It has definitely been a struggle for me.
So many people are misdiagnosed which is why I question psychiatry/psychology. They need far better methods to accurately diagnose, and/or change the education/training methods.
Love you, Daniel!
I tried to kill myself and was diagnosed Bipolar. My biggest wish in this world is to die. People do not understand the daily struggle. The guilt of knowing there is people that want to live and I want to die. More people need to talk about the difficult stuff in life. Not everything is rainbows and unicorns. For me it is darkness and demons. Thank you 😘
I’m so proud of you. You’re so strong 💕 Never give up.
you know youll probably read over this but i really vibe with you and uh god bless you i cant believe your here to tell your story and share your light with others and i although i share a different story than you ive felt the same emotions you felt. recently literally only a month out of almost 15 something years ive felt true reliefe and happiness wihtout feeling symptons that were lingering. you know, the other day i was driving home from therapy and a sudden wave of emotion came over me and started crying becasue i felt healed i felt happiness, i didnt have to fake it, it felt so real and true i was so happy and i thanked god for allowing me to have this feeling. i think you are amazing and you are so strong, this video is for yourself and as well as for me i feel like i can connect from afar and its kind of cool lol. have a good day!
this past month i meant*
I'm so happy you have put yourself first. you said it best, you can't work on the outside you without having a good inside you!
I could write a very long paragraph stating how related I feel with 90%, if not all of what you said on this video, but I think its clear you touched so many hearts with sharing your story. Thank you, for talking about these things, you have helped me in more than one occasion to see that one is truly never alone, even though it may feel like it, but thousands of people go through the struggles you have. I'm happy to see you are happy and glowy, and hope the best for you from now on, even on the lows, cause they will come, remember the feeling of being up there, and know that the bad times are temporary. (Look at that, I ended up writing a very long paragraph, sorry).
You talk about Anxiety & Depression, but why are you leaving nasty mean comment on someone who just a horrible car crash??
@Mister Preda maybe you also need to learn to have a little bit of compassion about other people life, since you openly talks about Mental Health.
The two don’t correlate. And it wasn’t nasty or mean, learn to read
lots of love. thank you for your vulnerability
Thank you for sharing your journey and for your bravery. You're an amazing person and you will get through this. Continue doing you and to your continued success.
Your beautiful soul shines bright !!! Just came across you and enjoying your rawness and real ness .
Many thanks for this video! Depression is terrible but we can fight it!
I relate so much Daniel. I’ve been loving ur newer content lately & can see you’re being true to yourself. Rooting for you & for what’s to come.
So here as you strive for authentic self-realization and happiness. Peace and joy!!!!! Be you. Be true. Thank you for sharing.